my bad.
Just got back from school, from a long & extremely boring, yet still utterly confusing lecture. As well as the most political project meeting i've ever attended. *deep sighs* I have never ever raised my voice at anyone for the longest time until today. and i feel really remorseful about doing so. I guess its just the stress and the tension. one of my group mates started raising her voice at a friend, and i just didn't like the tone she used and how she retaliated when there was a clash of opinions between the both of them. there she was just shouting at suwen, right infront of our new group member who we were just introduced to,which i felt wasn't leaving a very good impression. i tried to tolerate it by just keeping quiet. but she just went on, and yet suwen would answer so politely and patiently. but it just came to a point where i felt i had to bring my big butt in. and i snapped.
i probably shouldn't have done that. but i did. why did i snap? she is really quite a pleasent girl, and she has never done anything to offend me. sig h. the strange thing was, after i snapped at her for raising her voice, i actually left leaving as though i had saved the day. that i had saved suwen from more agonising bashings. but did i? i just made someone else feel much worse. i didn't exempify how a christian sister should react. i felt worse after that. anyway, i personally apologised for my behaviour though and yeah things are fine.
on a side note, the work load is piling up, I've got 2 major group assignments due in the next few weeks and the final exams are coming up in about a months time. I need to get my act altogether, it doesn't help when i've done so badly for my mid semesters and now i need to study twice as much, no thrice.. no quadruplely much harder!! How am i going to get through this semester?! the finishing line seems miles away, and my future looks so bleak. *cries*
alright then, thats my post for the day. got to rush off to worship practice at church now.
adious amigos.
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Let you go
by Ashley Parker Angel
i probably shouldn't have done that. but i did. why did i snap? she is really quite a pleasent girl, and she has never done anything to offend me. sig h. the strange thing was, after i snapped at her for raising her voice, i actually left leaving as though i had saved the day. that i had saved suwen from more agonising bashings. but did i? i just made someone else feel much worse. i didn't exempify how a christian sister should react. i felt worse after that. anyway, i personally apologised for my behaviour though and yeah things are fine.
on a side note, the work load is piling up, I've got 2 major group assignments due in the next few weeks and the final exams are coming up in about a months time. I need to get my act altogether, it doesn't help when i've done so badly for my mid semesters and now i need to study twice as much, no thrice.. no quadruplely much harder!! How am i going to get through this semester?! the finishing line seems miles away, and my future looks so bleak. *cries*
alright then, thats my post for the day. got to rush off to worship practice at church now.
adious amigos.
Currently ListeningLet you go
by Ashley Parker Angel
scribbled by Steffi @ 6:14 PM
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