there are certain things which i choose to not blog about. but for the first time today, i've decided to blog about a certain issue that i've been dealing with for several months now. recently some hurtful things have been said, and it hurts even more to know that you've lost a friend. even though i was rather distant, i have never thought of you any less than that of a friend who really cared and was geninuely helpful whenever in need. i couldn't express my gratitude and acknowledgment in that, because unspoken of boundaries were in place and i told myself that never will i want to cross those lines. its hard to act as though nothing hurtful was said, because it did. but i'm trying because i don't see how i could ever explain it to you when you are pulling away from people who really do care even you think do not.