Whenever I have to make a big decision in life.. I start to panic and freak out. And recently I feel that God has been placing me in such situations where He wants to see how I handle making such decisions and standing firm on what I have decided on. Its funny how when someone asks me for advise on what decisions he or she should make, I would somehow or another be able to give a seemingly reasonable answer. But when it comes to matters dealing with myself, I am always left in a fixed dilemma of not knowing what to do, where to go, etc.

I came to a conclusion that the reason why I face this problem is because I am never really ready to face the consequences, especially the bad ones. I am afraid of rejection, its just too much for me to bear.

I had a lovely conversation with my mummy dearest this morning. I was just feeling so bothered and confused and needed someone to talk to urgently at 9 in the morning. I thought she would be busy in the office, but thankfully she was at home resting her injured leg. I didn't get to tell her much, but I felt comforted immediately after we ended our conversation. For I know even if I do make bad decisions, I will always have her support and love.

Thank you ma.

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by Alanis Morissette