Back in Perth

hello people. i am right now currently back in Perth. ever since i got back on friday afternoon, i've been bunking at a friend, stacey's place. 6 girls packed in one house, sharing one toilet. can't imagine what it'll be like once school starts next week, when all of us would be rushing for the toilet. it looks lk a refuge camp, as well as an illegal construction workers' accomdation area. well, at least we are so much neater and organised than the boys camping away next door. anyway, things have been pretty much slow moving since i got back. i thought i would be excited about things once i got back. but, there has been quite an unusal turn of emotions that i am currently experiencing right now. the anxiety and eagerness of coming back and settling in for a whole new year altogether has slowly faded away, filling it with emotions of uncertainty and lonliness... in other words, i am rather home sick. I have no idea why on earth i'm feeling this way even though its been barely 3 days!! this is ridiculous. all i think about now are my family and friends back home. i guess when you get too attached to a place for sometime (i.e.3mths of long summer vacation), even though you tell yourself its back in australia where i really want to be, you know deep down in your heart that it is home where you will always belong to. and right now, i have no idea why i feel so detached from life in Perth suddenly. Don't get me wrong, i do enjoy myself in perth and i do have friends whom i love and treasure dearly. but i feel like i'm just suffering from a case of home-sick depression. i have been having a rather negative attitude about things lately. i don't portray it most of the time, trying my best to seemingly exude enthusiasm. well, i've been really praying so very hard for God to just change this attitude of mine into one of a joyfulness and its only in Him where i can find such joy.

alright i have to really go now. theres so much left unsaid and i wish i could just blog it all down. BUT, maybe thats a tad inappropriate. i am right now illegally typing this in the stcats computer lab... unsupervised! (because i am no longer a resident here.) ok better go before a tutor comes in and kicks me out.

Currently Listening

The Importance of being Idle

by Oasis

music personified.

The fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it’s too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You’re close enough to see that
....
You’re the other side of the world to me

Currently Listening
Other side of the world
by KT Tunstall

Let my life be a love song to You.

i'm still feeling so excited about what happened to me a few nights back that i have to blog it down this morning. so its valentines day. a day for soppy lovey dovey romance, where the burning incense of love lingers in the air like a contagious disease, that is being inhaled instantly by almost everyone walking down the street. u see, my radio is pre set at Class 95fm everynight before i sleep, and it doesn't help when they constantly keep playing the most love-sickly driven songs, more so to get their listeners in the mood for love as what DJ Yas would say on her segment of 'love songs'. on this particular night and coincidentally, i was thinking about certain things that got me pretty upset. i felt so vulnerable at that very moment and i began to absorb every love song i heard like a sponge, as though it was describing my sad situation to my seemingly sad life.
This was the particular song that was playing.

When you feel the sunlight
Fade into the cold night
Don't know where to turn
I don't know where to turn
And all the dreams you're dreaming
Seem to lose their meaning
Let me in your world
Baby, let me in your world
All you need is someone you can hold
Don't be sad
you're not alone

Chorus:
I will be here for you
Somewhere in the night
Somewhere in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Somewhere in the night
I'll be standing by
I will be here for you

And at this point i was telling myself, 'wow, wouldn't it be so romantic if someone was singing that to you and actually meant it with all his heart?' And then it HIT me lk a thunder bolt as i was listening to the 2nd verse,

In this world of strangers
Of cold unfriendly faces
Someone you can trust
Oh there's someone you can trust
I will be your shelter
I'll give you my shoulder
Just reach out for my love
Reach out for my love
Call my name and my heart will hear
I will be there, there's nothing to fear
(michael W.smith)

all i could think of was Jesus. He is that man who is singing that to me and He means every word of it. He is the lover of my soul, my redeemer, my everything. He is all i need. i don't need some person to sing me sweet love-songs, or to feel any voids of 'belongingness'. So no valentine's day is going to make me think or feel otherwise.

Textile Galore!

i have found a new love for Arab Street! the colourful and vibrant streets, together with the nostalgic rows of shophouses, gives a totally different aspect to shopping in the city district. this is a change from the constant shopping at huge shopping centre type of places like Orchard road, City Hall, Bugis, etc. Sharene had to buy materials for an evening dress she is sewing, so we went down to Corina's very own Wedding Dress Boutique at Arab Street. i've never really gotten to know corina personally, even though we stay about a 10 min-walk away from each other, and we've been attending the same church BMC since forever. its mainly because we belong to different age groups and generations. she hangs with the older yuppie crowd, who we always deemed were the 'cool & sophiscated' ones. But today, it was so fun just talking to Corina and finding out about her designing ambitions. Walking around arab street from shop to shop, under the blistering sun, was pretty tiring. from looking for chiffons, to thai silk, to laces, to can-can material like mesh. and woahhh having to think of a colour scheme is a huge headache on its own. i can't wait to see the final product of all your efforts sharene! let me post a picture of your beautiful evening dress when u r done with it k?!? who knows, you might very well be talent spotted by a famous Barcelonian fashion designer who reads my blog. grin.

i caught the breath-taking live telecast of the 48th annual grammy awards on thursday!! i love watching concerts where high-profile artists come together in a collaborated attempt to perform as one. Madonna with Gorillaz, U2 with Mary J. Blige, kanye west with Jamie Foxx, Mariah Carey with the Love Fellowship Choir, steven tylor, Will-i-am, maroon 5, john legend & joss stone.. all these pairings blew me away with their amazing group performances. despite the vast differences in styles and genres, at the grammys, everyone has only one common voice, the voice of music. oh gosh, i am getting goosebumps all over again just talking about it. i wish i was actually there to watch it live. all this makes me want to go watch a live concert! crap, and to think i missed out on getting tickets to go catch Coldplay in July. sobs. i want!!!

Anyway, after being glued to the tube for 3.5 hrs straight, i.. well quite reluctantly (because i was rather tired from all the excitment) headed down to town to meet my good old friends, uru& sumin. we just walked down orchard road, reminiscing about our JC days where we would do the exact same thing during our 1st 3mths. after dinner at Carls Jr. we ventured down to River Hong Bao. it was Cheeeeena to the max. but.. we had fun nonetheless.

Finally!

my project is over!!!

now that one big load is off my chest, i can start enjoying the remaining week of my holidays. time for shopping, meeting up with old friends, dvd-ing, xboxing and packing. my good o' buddy kah sian just got back from his long intense fighter pilot training in canada! So I met him on monday night for dinner at Indo Chine. The food wasn't very fantastic though, quite a disappointment just judging from how nice it looks on the outside. after dinner, we headed down to alley bar, and caught up with each other. its been a year since i last saw him when he was in perth finishing up one of his flying courses. i've known him ever since jc1 and its amazing how we have managed to keep in contact after all these years.

p.s. kahsian, i didn't put up the picture of u n your rx8 as you told me to, coz' i feel it would attract unnecessary attention.. if u know what i mean. girls shd love you for the sweet caring gentleman u are. not by the kind of car u drive. grin.

... and it still is Chinese New Year.

its that time of the year once again. Chinese New Year. a time of celebration with family and friends, some of whom you only see once a year. and with the chinese especially, everything revolves around food. food is a universal language of love especially in my family. even with language as a huge barrier between the grandfolks and the grandchildren, it seems as though the mention of food just breaks it all. even though we don't have much in common, its always my grandaunt's deliciously home cooked meals, home baked cookies, etc, that brings the enitre family altogether. lets just put it this way, the only thing i can think of saying to my grandaunt that will make her happy, or understand me, is to compliment on how good her cooking is.

and of course, there were the aunties and uncles who would keep going on about how much you've grown over the years.. some even ask the insane question on when i'm getting married! ... no boyfriend how to get married?! madness. anyway, just to confess and let off something thats been on my chest, my appetite is giantnormous!!! i'm not sure if its because of the stress or the festive season. i've been eating so much its not funny. haii. i'm worried.

Family pictures everyone!

My Family.

*we took a total of 7 shots just to get the right one we all look good in. yet i still look pregnant in the baby doll top i wore!!

My Brudders.

*goshh.. i really do look pregnant!!

this is for you faithful readers out there, if any, who click on my site now and then only to discover nothing has been changed or updated! i keep telling myself that i should blog more consistently, but its just so difficult with so many things happening right now. i've been rather busy and tied up with my project. firstly, my project mates are killing me. suddenly, i'm being piled up with the hardest job of editing! it sucks because everything is not even coherently structured together.. and this frustrates me! and whats worse than projectmates who don't know their stuff? Project mates who try and take all the credit! aside to Yang : you promised you would 'ha-dugan' them for me. keep to it okay.

...Help.

Anyway, i met Stace for lunch yesterday at coffee club. i had a such a great time just catching up over a meal, even though she made me feel uber guilty after that because she just had a salad, and i had a fatty-filled-with-carbo sandwhich. haha.. yet i still love you babe. thanks for listening. i think i really need to be around people right now. it helps with the whole process of getting your mind off certain unnecessary things. so, i have decided to start my meeting up rounds before i go back to australia. And so, if i do suddenly ask any of you out, its not just only because i enjoy your company, but you would really doing me a huge favour of helping me 'de-stress'.